Just Writing to Write
Not yet ready for a year recap, but as I am close to doing so (for myself this website is a fucking joke) I am realizing that I am pretty unhappy with myself this year.
I want to try and change my approach next year but I don’t really have a way to do so.
I do think I want to spend more time on personal projects which will mostly be self portraits of myself and my wife and kids and family photos that revolve around us.
I am going to focus more on myself with learning and growth. Like my flash equipment that I bought for my nieces senior photos over a year ago and I still don’t fully understand how to use our edit flash photos. All photos but one which I will point out in this blog used external flash, and I love them!
But I need to get better with flash, and doing posed ands setup photos FOR MYSELF.
I am spending the next week or two to really decide what I want for myself as a person with a camera in the year 2026
I don’t know what the fuck this is, a prequel to 2025 recap or what. I guess because I took these with the intentions of one taking the place as the new homepage photo and it just has me thinking.
I think this year I did good really focusing in on my editing skills, and I didn’t do a lot challenging myself with shooting differently. One thing I have been working on for the last week that will make posed photos more needed in the future is trying to come up with a red horror grunge looking preset/look. I finally gave up on red and went with orange. The red just flattens the image and takes a lot of details out, plus I want black shadows and trying to go all red just does not work well, it’s either red and no detail and to dark or it is pink and bright and a lot of details. Dumb.
This was not shot with flash, but a really good example of how squashed the details are in this image. Even so it is still more pink than it is red. I think I spent over 30 minutes going through different setting of this photo and even circled back to it still absolutely lost. I don’t think that I can achieve the look that I am going for in editing. Maybe if I used a red filter before shooting the photo would definitely help but I just do not see a way of doing this with only editing in Lightroom.
I introduce to you ‘‘Orange’’
This idea came out of the air, I can’t even say why I wanted an all red photo with black blacks. Again red for me just is not an easy color to achieve because I need some type of contrast that I can’t get with just using red and it fucking SUCKS. With Orange though, I can have yellows and slight greens that help create a contrast and give more life and detail to the image. I have color separation in my skin tones. It might not be the look I have spent the last week trying to create, but it’s the look that the last week has brought me.
A gorgeous Black and White or B&W to cleanse your palette <3
I want more of this. More little trial and errors to make happen with my photos. This is a beautiful start, but I also have projects I have shared with my wife that I have wanted to try but I need to actually make them happen and quit getting in these depressed fucking moods where I am just ashamed to be creative with my photos. I know I judge myself a lot and 90% of my photos I hate which I will talk about more when I do my 2025 recap but this one simple thing is a big reminder of what challenges and chances can create.
Cleanse yourself again
Indulge
I thought I had more than two photos left in what I took so whoops.
Like all things, it all still needs work and can be better. For getting off my depressed lazy ass and making myself get out and setup my equipment I am very happy with the outcome. I am more excited to start doing this crazy stuff out in the wild. Anyways I think that this is it.
Thank you, the end.
